It is hard to believe!

How hard it is to believe?

I cheated my brother from his rightful inheritance. On our blind father’s death bed I pretended to my brother. My father passed on to me the promise of land and blessings. Whatever reason it was now legal. I ran away to escape my brother’s murderous threats. For 20 years I stayed away, married and had children. I turned my life around. My father was such a man of God. Now I was taking responsibility for my actions and my faith.

God appeared to me on several occasions through dreams. He confirmed that He would honor my father’s inheritance and blessing. I would carry on God’s promise to the world. But now it was time to go back home. How would my brother receive me? God promised to be with me if I went back home. So we packed up and started on the long journey. On the way angels of God met me. What a confirmation! But then as we grew closer my fears overwhelmed me. My fears were too great and I panicked. I divided up my family into groups. In case my brother attacked one, then the others would survive. I sent him gifts to soften his heart. I stayed back and would come last. It all worked out. I humbled myself in front of him. He had forgiven me.

But what I can’t understand is my lack of faith. I was a coward. God’s promise was not enough. I took it out of His hands and figured out my own scheme to win my brother back. You would think seeing angels would be enough to convince me.

It is hard to believe even when the evidence is so clear.
Hope for better results for you. Signed Jacob (Reflections from Genesis 31-33)